David's words from Psalm 42 have been echoing in my mind the last few days. And I find that I am uttering very similar words to my own soul.
Soul, why can't you snap out of it?
Soul, why are you so worried?
Soul, why are you so disheartened?
Soul, why do you feel so hopeless?
Soul, when will you rejoice again? WHEN?
I know I often blog about this dry, desert season I am in. And if you read, you may be thinking to yourself..."this season is never ending," and the truth is, it feels that way most of the time. The honest truth is that there are days when I feel like the Lord has forgotten all about me. Prayers all around me are being answered, but my prayers are exhausted and hard to speak. There are more days than not that I feel like I am blindly walking through this life, just holding on to that last bit of hope with all of my might.
The Lord has been very quiet in this season of life. And I am desperately longing for His voice. For just an "It's going to be ok. I've got this." My head knows that my heart and life are being held in His hands. My head knows exactly what His word tells me. The truth. But my poor soul...my poor, weak, little soul is struggling.
David puts it so accurately when he says "My soul pants for you, God. My soul thirsts for you." There is nothing I want more than to feel close to the Lord. To feel like I did in the days before this season began. For my soul to be quieted by His love, and His grace. For my soul to truly understand that despite all the gloominess, that there is always a reason to rejoice. I have to find my Joy again. And even though it may feel as if the Lord has left my side, He is right there. Ready to pour His joy into me. Ready to take this soul and change it. So, for now, my soul needs a major pep talk...
Soul, it is going to be ok!
Soul, the Lord will quiet you with singing!
Soul, there is always HOPE!
Soul, a time of rejoicing is coming!
"My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you (your goodness, your mercy, your love, your sacrifice, your peace)..." Psalm 42:6
Lord, bring to mind all the things you have done. All the miracles. All the healing. All the beautiful things. All the ways you have rescued me. And let these things bring joy to my soul--even on the hardest of days.
Be Blessed!
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